bone in sub

i have no idea why i haven’t been able to write very much lately. mainly i’ve just been doing a lot of things, but even though i’ve been home a good amount the last couple days i just keep writing posts and deleting them because they suck. i still write this as an introspective personal journal or whatever, but i still have my own standards. paradoxically, the more day-to-day pith i discard the more i want to write things i’ll find interesting in five years. so i’m just going to crank one out, super-condensed:

it’s getting cold out and i’ve been taking the subway a lot. i have a lot of dreams about fighting. i haven’t been drinking much water. i keep waking up with a roaring noise in my head and a crazy feeling that someone is standing right over me.

things are a lot calmer in my life than in september/october, but i’m feeling good. i just wish i could sleep more; i’m still only sleeping five nights a week.