bone in sub

like everyone who runs a blog that’s not somehow related to making money, here i am guiltily updating 20 years after my last post. i’ll be even more meta and post about how those people also frequently post about how they’d like to post more.

my life has been really weird lately. i settled into a routine after moving in may – go home from work most days, watch movies or play video games, hang out with friends sometimes, go to work parties once or twice a week, events with other friends maybe once a month. that routine stopped. i’ve been extremely impulsive, and either having the time of my life or bored. kind of introspective, too, which is not normal for me – the introspection largely has to do with my lack of emotion, though, which i find amusing. there are much higher highs, which make me notice/dislike the uneventful times a lot more, but i think it’s generally “worth it”. not that i have any control.

usually when i don’t have anything to do, i’ll watch tv or play video games. i’ve been having trouble doing either lately, especially video games…they just seem so boring. this has only happened once before, right when i moved to toronto when i was 18.

i’ve worked a bunch of overnight stretches at work in the last few months. about a month ago, i worked an overnight while i was sick and had stayed up almost all night the previous night – by the end of it i was completely delirious and felt like dying. two weeks ago i worked another overnight that led into a big day at work – i had planned on working for 24 hours straight, i ended up working for 27: 8pm to 11pm. at the end of that i felt decent: weird but satisfied. i wonder when i’ll be too old to stop doing stuff like that.

in the past couple weeks i’ve been getting a bunch of new music. i think my favorite thing right now is a song pair from of montreal’s false priest:

(they’re gapless.)